Johanna's Journal:I knew Grandpa wouldn't approve of what I was going to do, whether or not the experimental treatment was harmless or not. The doctors I conferred with at the hospital said they would cause mild dizziness and thirst. There was also a mild form of a substance that might cause euphoria and giddiness. I thought, well, Monica could use some of that. So I set out late one night to pay a visit to Monica and was looking forward to seeing Sam. I knew deep down, he was my soul mate and I cared very deeply for him. My phone kept ringing while I was driving and I figured it was Grandpa, worried, as usual. I just let it ring.
Monica answered the door and we chatted for a while. She said she had not been feeling well, so I explained I had a pill that might make her feel better. She was supposed to take one now and one in the morning and I would stay the night to make sure she was ok and she agreed.
She said she felt better already, but it made her kinda dizzy and thirsty and she was going to go to bed. I told her goodnight and she skipped down the hall, that was worth seeing in itself. Sam was already in bed and I must have woke him when I laid down beside him. Of course, now, he had other things on his mind, but I wasn't really in the mood. I was actually hoping Monica was ok, not sure why, but I guess that is the doctor in me.
The next morning, the three of us chatted for a while and Monica said she slept better than she had in a long time. I told her it was time to take the other pill and this is what happened.....
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I was livid, I was almost in hysterics and I didn't know what to do. I thought, this can't be happening, it wasn't suppose to happen. Sam put his arms around me and tried to comfort me and I couldn't stop crying.
I told him I had to go to the hospital and check something out.
I found the doctor that had helped me with the pills and I ask him again what was in them and what the effects were. He said, "I told you last night what they were, why is this such a big deal. The only harm it might cause someone if they were NOT MORTAL." I came unglued and never thought about it harming a vampire. I had to get away, I had to go tell the family and just how was I going to do that.
I found Grandpa and told him first. He also comforted me the best way he knew and said, it was not my fault. How could I have known the effects on a vampire. I needed to tell Joslin, but how, what am I going to say.
When I saw her, somehow she read my mind and hugged me without saying a word.
She said, I already know and everything is going to be alright. I couldn't stop crying and saying I was sorry. No one was blaming me, but me. I am a doctor, I heal people, I don't hurt them, whether they are bad or not. I just don't do that.
A little while later, I got a call from Sam and he said he needed me over there and to pack my things. He had something to ask me and it was very important. He said life is too short and I want you with me, always. So I packed my clothes, told my family I loved them, but I had to start a new life and I would visit often and give Grandpa lots of great grandchildren. As I walked down the sidewalk, I didn't even look back, I just knew I was going to be happy, for once, happy.
