The morning of Summer's birthday dawns clear and sunny so we take advantage of it and head out to tend the garden.
Summer had a restless night, so I'm not planning her party 'til a bit later in the day.
But one of my plants died and I was so sad I almost cried! Over a plant!
I know I've come a long way but crying over a plant seems a bit much, it even made my stomach feel queasy.
Jerad said I probably just needed some food on my stomach since we hadn't eaten breakfast yet.
That sounded reasonable, so I headed into the house but went to the nursery to check on Summer first.
She wasn't sleeping but seemed content in her crib.
But my loving gaze is abruptly diverted by a change of clothes.
Maternity clothes!
Looks like Summer's biggest present is going to be being a big sister soon!
I'm a little shocked at how soon but it certainly explains my over-emotional display over a plant.
And the queasiness.
As I rub my tummy tenderly over our expected nooboo, I hope this one is a boy!
With all my maternal instincts kicking into overdrive, I share my giddiness with Summer.
She giggles and coos as I play with her and tell her she's going to have a baby brother or sister soon.
Food forgotten, I smile as I head outside to share my news with Jerad.
Jerad was just as surprised and happy as I was to learn of our coming child.
He was still tired from our restless night though, so he went in to clean up and catch a nap.
My gardening skill had increased so I planted some of my level 5 seeds and produce.
I happily survey our growing garden and realize with a smile that's it's not the only thing growing bigger, but our family is too!
I'm so caught up in my thoughts I'm a bit startled when our guests start arriving for Summer's birthday.
I greet them and tell them to head on into the house as I'm just finishing up my last few plantings.
I took a chance and invited Jerad's ex Lorie Haras, Culver now, as she met and married Charles Culver not long after Jerad broke up with her and moved in with me.
They have a child too, a son a little younger than Summer.
I was relieved that she rebounded from Jerad so quickly since it alleviated some of my guilt about being responsible for that.
But I smile as I overhear her deny her vampirism to Jack.
She'd confessed to Jerad about being one, which is one of the things that made him leery of her, but apparently she wasn't ready to have it be public knowledge yet.
I'm tempted to blurt out the truth, and not that long ago I wouldn't have hesitated.
But do I really want a vampire as an enemy?
I'm not proud of it but it was more that idea than being nice that prompts me to hold my tongue.
When I get inside, I find Jerad awake from his nap and playing with Summer, getting in his last cuddles with her as a baby.
But he lets me do the honors of bringing her to the cake.
The guests have trouble all entering through our one door so most of them watch from the doorway and front stoop.
I carefully place Summer on the floor and make a mental note that we need a back or side entrance the next time we do some remodeling so guests have other options.
Jerad is too busy waving a party maker to notice the lack of guests in the kitchen.
And Summer becomes a toddler with my red hair!
I'd been thinking of her as blonde so long that I'm shocked but then I realize she looks just like me as a toddler.
Jerad is thrilled and pops a wish for another girl as he says he'll never tire of being surround by beautiful women!
I can't help but be a little swayed by the compliment, after all my Diva heart just agrees with him.
I am beautiful and so is our daughter!
But I still keep my wish for a boy.
I quickly pop her into one of the cute green outfits mother had sent us and do her hair up with the matching bows.
I take a quick photo and send it off to her grandparents.
She happily plays with the new doll she received from them.
But I interrupt her play time with her first potty training.
She looks a bit puzzled as to what she's supposed to be doing, but I give her a little time to figure it out as my thoughts dwell on the coming baby.
With that event happening so soon, Jerad and I will need to focus on Summer's toddler skills even more.
I'm suddenly daunted by the prospect of caring for our growing garden along with two children!
The guests have happily eaten all the cake while I was busy with Summer and then they all head home.
Probably one of the lamest parties they've ever been invited to or I've ever given honestly.
But I'm too tired to care. Much.
In fact, Jerad took one look at my exhausted face and sent me to take a nap and told me to stop worrying.
He tells me he's perfectly capable of taking care of Summer and shows it by scooping her up for a quick cuddle.
As I head for our room, I hear them laughing as he plays 'Attack of the Claw' with her.
Through my weariness I realize he's right, he's a great dad and I need to stop worrying.
After my restoring nap, I wake to find Jerad coaxing Summer to take her first steps.
I smile as she resists at first, plopping down stubbornly on her bottom.
But a perfectionist doesn't give up that easily and soon she's taking her first wobbly steps!
But Summer's getting tired so Jerad tries his hand at potty training.
She's learning quickly and when her daddy tells her what a big girl she's getting to be, her grin and smiling eyes just light up her sweet face!
Then after a quick cuddle he pops her in her crib.
She doesn't protest too much so we know she's ready for bedtime.
The next morning I'm feeling a bit better and call my parents with our baby news.
Mother was surprised I'd even considered having another child, let alone so soon, but I can tell she's happy for us.
I'm a little reluctant to tell daddy that with two children it's going to be hard to make much progress with the growing garden, but I confess my worries and he shocks me with his next words.
He tells me it's not the garden that's important, but ME!
I was his concern all along and it was never really about the garden or if it failed or succeeded.
It was about me learning to focus on something besides shopping and partying, having a real, balanced life.
Something for me to take to pride in and realize my own self worth!
He says it was his fault for giving me too much growing up and not teaching me true life values and skills.
That he was so busy giving me a rich life he forgot to give me the most important things, a strong foundation of love and support.
A firm foundation to build my life on and continue growing and feeling like a worthwhile part of a family, a community.
He wasn't angry at me at all, but with himself for not being a good father, for not seeing what was happening before I became a young adult and was floundering.
Before he rings off he tells me not to worry about the garden, to let it grow and produce in it's own time, to balance good healthy work with fun and family time and enjoy my new life.
And more than anything else, to know that he and mother love me and have never felt prouder of the me they knew I could be.
That I am!
With daddy's words ringing in my ears, I feel so proud of what I've accomplished, first on my own, then with Jerad by my side.
I quickly shower and dress for the day and with a renewed energy and a much lighter spirit, I scoop up Summer and encourage her to take the last few steps she needs to master walking.
But I remember daddy's words about being balanced and I want to start Summer off right.
Since she worked so hard and learned to walk so quickly, she needs some play time.
And I know I made the right decision when she grabs a block, smiles at me and a laughs with delight!
After her play time, I bring her to the potty again and she master's that too!
Daddy was so right about everything and I dismissed him for so long, thought he was just trying to ruin my life.
It's focusing on the little things, building on a foundation of love, and everything else will follow in it's time.
As Summer focuses on her toddler skills and masters them one by one, with play time in between and lots of love and cuddles, she'll grow to be the person she's meant to be.
And so will this new little one. One step, one skill, at a time. With lots of love and cuddles in between.
Summer's learning her toddler skills and will be a big sister soon.
Me, I've learned a lot this past week.
About my husband and our child, about my parents, but especially about myself.
I know I have a lot more to learn but I'm actually looking forward to it!
Join me in Chapter 7: Growing Garden, Growing Family
Coming soon.