Now before you say anything, I do not have a drinking problem
I'm just..
practicing.. *sigh* I know. You look nervousI am
Don't be Willow, honey it's only Zest.. the love of your life.. just talk to him - he knows you better than anyoneWhat? No.. I'm nervous about this new jumping ice that's coming down.. Did you know I have had to spend all night trying to keep the ice in the shaker? *whispers* I've been counting how many I catch and I'm up to 20! Squee!!
*Stunned silence*
How are you this morning Zest. Talking to me yet?Zest "I don't want to talk to you.. but I've just got it bubbled up inside... Isn't Rochelle just the most beautiful and stunning baby you have ever laid your eyes on?"
Yes she is, without any doubtZest "I'm just so proud - she came from me! From us actually, but I had a part in creating that miracle in there! I mean.. wow.."
You sure did.. Zest? Have you spoken to Willow yet? I know that she will be on her way inside soon.. and .. oh no.. oh Zest quick!
Zest! You need to fix this and quickly!! Where are you? Zest?Zest " ... and let me just wipe this tear away from your face. You should never need to cry my girl, not while I am here"
Zest, there is a broken speaker in the kitchen and also in the study. I think that maybe you should try to fix them before.. oh dear.. too lateZest "Listen Watcher, I appreciate you trying to fix things.. but you are half the reason as to why they are broken in the first place. So please - butt out and let Illy and I work this out on our own, in our own way, even if it means that she does get mad with me about the speakers. It is what it is Watcher"
Ok Zest - enough said*mumbling* .. no respect at all.. I'm tired, sad and just can't believe this is happening
Are you talking about Zest honey?It's the ICE Watcher... it just kept jumping.. why is this happening?
I promised Zest I would keep out of things.. so this will be the last thing I say on the subject. Do you think that maybe you are directing your anger and anxiety on the ice rather than speaking to your husband?Oh for goodness sake. *deep breath*
Zest - I want to talk to you. I am going to start this off with a smile OK?
Zest "Not now Illy"
If not now, when? I mean.. you really surprised me! You didn't want to be woken when Rochelle was born.. I had to go through all of that by myself!! I know that the Watcher was there, but she doesn't count. She can't hold my hand, rub my back, hug me when I'm scared
Zest "I mean it Illy, I can't talk with you about this right now. I am so angry with you and I need to calm down before I say something that I might regret"
That is ridiculous. What on earth do YOU have to be mad about? Did I not fix the speaker fast enough? Did I give birth too loudly?
Zest "*shouting* You named our child without even talking to me! You got confused, like you always do! I said.. don't just wake me - shake me as hard as you can. I missed naming our daughter and seeing her being born because your mind was everywhere else except on what I was saying to you! This is YOUR fault Willow. Not mine"
My fault? I don't understand. Watcher? Watcher? Why isn't she talking to me? Zest?
Zest "Because I asked her to keep out of this Willow. And I would have thought she had told you that already. You just go ahead and paint, pretend that this is just going to blow over.. you need to grow up now Willow - We have a child that needs BOTH parents"
<sobbing quietly>
Zest "*sighing* I really didn't want to talk about this now Illy. I'm so angry and I think I just need to take some time, I didn't mean to say those things so harshly. I'm also just so incredibly sad.."
I think I may have made a big mistake my little one.. and I don't think that there is a book or TV show that is going to help me fix this. But I will promise you something Chelle.. I will ALWAYS be here for you. I will also always love you, flaws and everything
Hi, you OK?Zest "Nope"
Want me to go away?Zest "Not anymore - I guess I got most of my anger out. Now I'm just so sad"
Maybe some exercise might help, you know - get out that last little bit of anger?Zest "yeah, OK"
I know that you are crying honey.. you don't have to hide it.
Zest " I just need to keep going Watcher, I just need to get over this or I'm going to lose them both"
Zest "I will focus only on the good things, the things in the future"
Do you think you will be able to do that?Zest "I have a plan"
Wow, wasn't expecting that
Zest "*mumbling* ... and then if I just ask more questions.. get more certain that she hears me.."
Zest "Everything is going to be alright my beautiful and precious girl.. boop! I got your nose!"
Zest "Can we talk?"
*whispers* Watcher? I'm scared
<walking out of ear shot> Me too...
