Dear Diary, Just as I had suspected, Justin was NOT amused by my telling him about Cameron! He had been the "man of the family" for quite some time and had taken his dad's words of, "son, when it's my time to go I expect you to take good care of your mother", seriously. It was quite the confrontation for awhile.
I tried to explain to him that I would never stop loving his father, but I need a bit of companionship in my life that only a husband or lover could provide, and I was not the type to take a lover. He still was very upset and angry.
I left them to talk things over. I knew Justin loved me and wanted the best for me and I was hoping Cameron was the same. I imagine it was a pretty intense conversation.
My adorable son wanted to know exactly what his intentions were toward me and what was he really after? After all, he was very young compared to myself, broke and unemployed and was he just after our money? He let it be known in no uncertain terms that his mother already had her heart broken by the loss of his father and there was no way he wanted some smoozer to come along and break her heart again!
Cameron laid it on pretty thick, telling Justin I was the only woman for him and that he had loved me from the moment he first saw me. He was getting pretty convincing for a guy in swim trunks and flippers!
But then he let slip he rather liked our nice, big house too, especially since he was basically homeless.
Justin went off to think about things at HIS favorite spot, his dad's easel. I think he thought it would all blow over and I'd get over it.
Meanwhile, Cameron made use of the facilities in the house, getting cleaned up so he'd look more presentable when he spoke to Justin again. He was letting him have some time to cool off.
I found him, and just couldn't resist him. He just made me so happy and brought joy back into a life of loneliness. Besides, he was so cute! How many guys go to court a gal in swim trunks and flippers? I knew I just belonged in his arms.
Still, I was terrified! Was I doing the right thing? Would I lose the affection of my son? Would this last at all? And could I face the heartbreak of losing a man I loved once again. Then, there was that "other thing" I hadn't been completely open about.
I didn't know he was just as scared as I was. Was he going to lose me? Was this our last embrace? I made him so happy and he really wanted things to work out, but would they?
"We both need each other in our lives. You are in my heart and you will be there for as long as you live. I really love you, Cameron, and hope you feel the same way about me."
"My beautiful lady. I know we are rushing this a lot, but please, don't ever doubt how much I care about you. If I had my way we'd be together forever."
But wait! There's more! Sorry, dear diary, I just could resist saying that~~ Right then and there I decided I would propose. He was holding back on asking, I guess he figured he had already pushed the envelope to the limit, so I figured it was up to me before he got away.
He was flabbergasted!
Of course he said yes!
Now comes the hard part. Letting Justin know we were engaged.
I think these pictures say it all!
There was a lot of "Mom! How could you?", and things not quite so polite about Cameron's character and my lack of intelligence and forethought. I won't bore you with the details.
Cameron got dressed, (finally), and we married right then and there, with Justin as a witness. Check out what HE'S thinking! "You're goin' DOWN, dude! You're gonna DIE!"
We did not allow his rudeness to sway us, however. Even when he said something about how hard a baseball can hit someone's head if thrown with force.
I was happy and I didn't care, and I knew he'd get over his sulks once he saw what a good guy Cameron was.
Sigh. Mr. and Mrs. Cameron Thyme.
