The Lady of the Lake: Chapter 3 – An Uncertain FutureNext morning Lady Valerie rose and dressed in mourning clothes, while Guinevere sent a note asking that Lady Valerie come to see her when she felt able to leave her chambers. On receiving the Queen’s note, Lady Valerie instructed Bronwyn and Alun to prepare to return to Avalon and went to meet Guinevere who, on inquiry, was to be found in the red library writing in a journal.
“I did not expect to see you quite so soon, my dear sister Valerie,” said Guinevere rising to meet her sister-in-law. “I don’t think I am eloquent enough to find the words to express how distressed I was to hear of Sir Galahad’s death. Please accept my heartfelt condolences.”
Lady Valerie responded. “Thank you. You sent for me?”
“Yes... to pass on my condolences and to enquire of your plans for the future”
“There is no reason for me to remain in the castle now.” Lady Valerie replied. “I have no wish to be reminded constantly of the life I’d hoped for with Sir Galahad, which now... can never be.”
“There are more than memories of Sir Galahad in Camelot. You are the King’s sister. I enjoy your company and you have a place here as a Lady of the Court,” said Guinevere softly.
“I know what my brother thinks of me. Arthur does not need an impulsive sister who causes him embarrassment. If I stay here, Arthur or Sir Lancelot, will consider it their duty to marry me off to some nobleman but I will never marry against my heart.”
“Will you please sit with me a moment dear sister?” asked Guinevere. Valerie sat on a chair under the windows and Guinevere sat beside her. “So will you be returning to Avalon?”
“Bronwyn and Alun will return to Avalon. I shall not,” replied Lady Valerie.
“Oh! Where will you go?” concern creasing Guinevere’s brow.
“I shall go to Caerleon Abbey,” Lady Valerie answered her gaze drifting out the window.
“I do not know of it,” said Guinevere clearly puzzled.
“It is a small abbey not far from Tintagel where I was born.”
“That is very pretty country. Will you go there for prayers and mediation?” asked Guinevere.
“No... to live. Perhaps I can help in the garden or be of use in rewriting ancient texts.” Lady Valerie replied. “Maybe I could even teach the village children, for I enjoy the curiosity of children and now, I will never have children of my own.”
“Do you mean to become a nun?” asked an incredulous Guinevere. “But the curse, my dear Valerie, for despite your handsome dowry, without true love’s kiss, you could live for many centuries in poverty and penance in an abbey. If you desire to be of use, perhaps we could consider starting a school in Camelot for the village children. There are many texts in this library suitable to transcribe for teaching.”
“I thank you for wanting to make a place for me here, but I do not wish to stay.”
“But should not a convent be a place for the spiritual and committed, not the bereaved?”
“Sir Lancelot’s mother, Elaine of Benoic and his aunt Evaine both went to a convent after the deaths of their husbands. Caerleon Abbey is pretty and has a meagre garden which I can help make more bountiful.”
“The queens you mentioned were both widows whose lands had been taken by Claudas. Surely a convent is no place for a high born maiden such as you?”
“You are misinformed, my Queen. A convent is the only place for me if I do not wish to be wed. The convents of England abound with the unwanted unwed daughters of the high born, not the villagers. The poorest labourer upon the land has no need to get rid of his daughter, if he could not find her a husband; for she is useful working in the fields among his sons, or spinning and working with his wife. The tradesman or artisan in the village is similarly blessed. He could apprentice his unwed daughter to a trade. But a King or knight or even a county gentleman cannot apprentice his unmarried daughters to a dressmaker or a weaver in the village. For the high born women there is only marriage or a convent.”
“Then you have truly opened my eyes, for I had always assumed a convent was a place for the truly devout but I see the logic behind your words. My concern is that your energy and vivacity would be unsuited and stifled by such an institution. May I suggest, as your sister-in-law and Queen, that you go to Avalon and stay with Morgan le Fay. Then return to Camelot for the next yuletide, and we will discuss your future when memories of Camelot are not so painful.”
“As you bid, my Queen, so it shall be.”
“One more thing... Arthur has already asked Sir Bors the Younger to accompany you wherever you go for protection.”
“I do not need such protection at Avalon,” responded Lady Valerie.
“You might be able to freeze unwanted suitors away with an Icy Blast but it will not halt the march of Mordred’s army which are more than a thousand strong and moving ever closer toward our lands.”
“Then I shall be perfectly safe at Avalon; and Sir Bors will be more of use here than with me!” Lady Valerie countered. “We shall leave as soon as I have said my goodbyes to Arthur and Sir Lancelot.” Lady Valerie then stood and bowed her head to her sister-in-law and Queen.
Guinevere reached out and gently touched Lady Valerie’s shoulder in reassurance. “I think that is for the best. I shall miss your vivacity and especially your spontaneity.” Guinevere said.
As Guinevere touched Lady Valerie’s shoulder she felt a chill and had a premonition that they would never meet again. Impulsively Guinevere hugged her sister-in-law.