Entry 3 - The Way Things EndMy birthday came and went without a nod from my parents. I shouldn't be surprised by them now, but I wish they were all there, you know? If anything, shouldn't they still be here to guide me? At least I'm here for Len, that should be some comfort, but sometimes it's not. It's hard to be strong for him when I'm just stumbling through all this. How am I supposed to know what to do when things happen? Some of it's common knowledge, some of it's what I've read out of the books Dad hid around the bunker, but there's other stuff. I'm not his mother, I'm his sister. How can I be both?
Whatever the case, I can finally use the grill in the little kitchen we have, and I set up the household with a serving of hot dogs for everyone. I have to bribe Mom and Dad a little in order to eat, but I can finally get them around and focused long enough to do that at least.
Most of the time they just dance to the little radio we have. At least some of the Old World broadcasts still carry over the soundwaves. It's something for them to do at least, I have to be happy with that much.
Len helps out when he can, I think he knows how stressed out I can get taking care of everyone. It's not that hard to notice I guess. He does what he can, and that's really all I ask.
He's a wonderful teenager now. Sure, we both have our off days, but we're as close as we've always been.
Nothing ever seems to go his way, I'm afraid he might be a bit of a loser, but if anyone ever calls him that, I'll beat their skulls in. I promised him I'd always be there for him, that I'd make sure he's protected, no matter what. It seemed to calm him down a little.
It broke my heart. It should have been Mom and Dad telling him that, not me. I promise the world I'll make things better. No one else will suffer this madness if I have anything to say about it.
I'm glad Len's a teenager now. It's made things a lot easier.
To be honest, I didn't think anything outside of our family really existed, but when Mom got out of bed one night and faced Grim, I knew I was wrong.
She was 93. From what I know, she had a good life, but I never knew her the way I really wanted to. There are going to be a lot of regrets in my life, and none that I could have controlled. I just wish I could.
I made Len go to bed while I sat up with Dad, waiting for him to fall asleep. I've never seem him so old as he looked at that moment. Somewhere inside of him, I knew there was someone who recognized what was happening. I could see the fight in his soul, it just wasn't strong enough.
Dad died the next night at age 94. I may not have known him well either, but he was still my Dad, he was the one who started all of this, not Mom. I loved him, he just didn't know that at the end, I think. Or maybe he did, I hope he did...
He calmly went with Grim, shaking his hand, saying something about watching out for us.
Oh Founders... What are we going to do? Is this how it's going to end? Or can we still push on, just Len and I?