Dear Friend,
It's been a rough week.
"Mama cry?" Sarah said from the floor.
I sobbed wiping my eyes, "I'm sorry baby."
"What mama cry for?" She asked.
"Mamas just missing daddy right now baby, I'm fine." I told her.
"I miss daddy too." She said.
Well that didn't make it any better, I went to the bathroom and fell against the door crying.
"What did I do?! What did I do...." I whispered.
I took Sarah away from her father, that's what I did.
But then he cheated so he did it to himself.
It took a while but I finally managed to calm down enough to celebrate Sarah's birthday.
It was hard having Jeremy here, but I wasn't about to make him miss his own daughters birthday.
"Sam."
I turned around, Jeremy stood right in front of me.
"Is it still too soon to apologize again?" He asked.
Did I mention he hasn't stopped sending apology texts since the day after he left?
"Jeremy..." I said.
"I know, just hear me out! I did some thinking and I am really sorry for what I did. I realize now that I was an idiot and that I did cheat. I don't know what I was thinking. Look, I told Tiffany I wasn't going to be seeing her, even as a friend, anymore. I miss Sarah, I miss this house, and I miss Elena, and most of all I miss you." He said.
I couldn't help but cry, all these hormones and emotions were shooting through me like there was no tomorrow.
"Can I have some time? Just a little bit more time to think things over?" I asked.
He sighed, "That's all I ask for."
A couple days later I decided to invite a few people over to exchange gifts.
Everything went great, and everyone loved what they got! I got a nice pair of pajamas, Jeremy got a new game for his game system, and Sarah got a new CD of music.
I had to sit down though, my back was killing me. This was either multiples or one big baby.
Sarah came over and plopped on to the couch and watched TV with me.
"Is daddy going to move back in with us?" She asked out of no where.
"I'm not sure right now baby." I told her.
"I hope he does." She whispered.
I was about to answer when a sharp shooting pain went through me.
"AH!!" I screamed standing up.
"Mommy!" Sarah screamed.
"Go get your father!" I gasped.
Sarah ran into the bedroom and screamed that something was wrong with me.
"Sam!" Jeremy yelled running out.
"It hurts! Jeremy it hurts really bad!" I gasped.
"Let's get to the hospital!" Jeremy said.
"Sarah, call the neighbor, have them watch you." I gasped through the pain.
Jeremy helped me into the car.
"You okay?" He asked.
I nodded, "Yeah, just drive please."
He tore out of the driveway and rushed me to the hospital.
After several hours of pain, and one broken hand later, we welcomed a baby boy into the family.
Say hello to Lucas Moon.
I look horrible in the picture, but I was totally exhausted. Jeremy drove the baby and I back home and got me tucked into bed. He went to leave to go back to his house but I grabbed his arm.
"Please," I begged, "Please just stay with me for tonight."
"Of course." He said.
He climbed into the bed and wrapped his arms around me, I don't know why but I just lost it and started to bawl into his chest.
"Shhh." He whispered.
He rocked me slowly as I drifted to sleep, the last thing I heard was:
"I'll make it up to you Sam, I promise you that. I will make it better." Jeremy whispered.
Love always,
Sam
More words than pictures. Will Sam forgive Jeremy and let him back in? Should she do it for Sarah who misses her dad? We will have to see! Let me know what you think?
Here is a strange picture that I took, I didn't realize adults could play with doll houses!