Dear Friends,
Tedd here, I would like to tell you that things in the Haystings household are great and everyone is fine. However, if I did that I would be lying to you. Although seeing as it's me writing to you instead of Grace, that should give you a small indication of how things are going. Either way though, it killed me to see my wife go through so much pain. Trying to make it better wasn't working no matter how I brought it up.
"There's always adoption!" I said.
"I want my own baby." She said, dead inside.
"Honey, just because it's adopted doesn't mean it wont be yours." I told her.
"Just leave me alone. You don't understand." She told me.
"I do! I do understand." I said.
"GO AWAY!" She screamed, the tears falling from her eyes once again.
I sighed and left the room.
How do I help her through this?
A week passed and I progressed enough to get her to come out of the room and downstairs, maybe interaction with the family who loves her would help.
But, all she did was lay on the couch staring at the ceiling.
"Honey, lets go upstairs, get some clean clothes on you." I said.
"I like what I have on." She mumbled.
"You haven't showered in over a week." I mentioned.
"I don't care, nothing matters anymore." She said.
I looked over at Alex who just looked at the ground and sighed.
Later that day I walked upstairs to hear her mumbling something, something about she did this and she was being punished for doing something wrong.
"I did this, I did this. I deserve this." She whispered.
"Stop that!" I hissed.
She just looked at me with her broken puppy dog eyes before going back to her chant.
"I did this, it's my punishment." She whispered.
"Grace you aren't being punished for anything! You didn't do anything wrong!" I told her.
"I deserve this, I would be a horrible mother." She whispered.
It was like I wasn't even in the room.
Things went backwards the next day as she trapped herself in the bedroom again, screaming for her mother to come back and take her with.
"I don't want to do this anymore!" She screamed.
I ran over to her, "Grace! Get up!"
"No!" She cried.
"Grace! Grace stop!" I screamed as she tried to hurt herself.
I managed to get her up standing, she just broke down in sobs.
"I can't do this! It's too much pain! I want a baby! I want a baby or I want to DIE!" She sobbed.
"We'll have a baby, one way or another we will be parents." I whispered.
She just shook in my arms until she fell asleep.
I watched her sleep before going to the phone book and looking up someone who could help her, heal her pain better than I could. I needed to get her help, because it sounded like she was having thoughts that scared the crap out of me.
Things took a turn for the worst that night, and I was glad I could convince Grace to stay upstairs so it didn't upset her.
The dishwasher had been broken for a few days, and we had not heard one word from the mechanic on when they could be here so Alex took it upon himself, with no skill what so ever, to fix it himself and save us some money.
The next thing I heard (when I was upstairs with Grace) was a scream, which is what brought me downstairs to see this.
"ALEX!!!!" Ituxi wailed.
The next thing we knew, the Grim Reaper showed up.
Alex begged for his life but the Reaper did not want anything to do with it so he hit him into his urn.
"DADDY!" Brooke cried out.
Ituxi held on to Brooke tightly as they both cried.
Biscuit on the other hand, had different plans.
He started to bark at the Reaper and growl, and that scared the Reaper so bad that he had no choice.
"Alex!" Ituxi gasped covering her mouth.
He was alive!
"Oh!" Alex gasped as he was attacked by Ituxi
"I was so scared!" She cried.
"I'm not leaving again," He said, "Never again."
"Daddy!" Brooke ran into Alex's arms.
"I thought you left!" She cried.
"Never, I'm not leaving you for a 100 years." He said, tears filling his eyes.
And, like many people who almost die, he spent the rest of the night with his daughter want wife.
Everything is getting better slowly, but it could be better.
Love always,
Tedd
Wow. Hopefully this was a good chapter, not sure how I did with it... Let me know 
