I can understand the feeling of loss of your family. When one of mine die I hate it, I've yelled NO! when it happens to mine.
Did so yesterday, this couple didn't get to live to see their grandchildren born, to hold them.
To play them to the final town, that is going to be hard to give them up, to say this is it guys and gals. They become real to us. Not physical real, but real still.