Since this is only about half the length I wanted, but I did want to get something out today; I'll get the rest of what I thought of as 'this update' later.
Part 7: Fertility StatueWith Neon’s death – we haven’t set anything up yet, not exactly; we’re not sure what to do, in terms of memorial for the dead. Maybe in a little while, I’ll do some remodeling; I’ve had a lot of plans for that. Mom’s policy of ‘not until we need it’ is going to be trouble, oh, I just know it! – Quicksilver needs some extra care and attention, to keep the sorrows at bay.
But there’s more to the household than Diane and I’s newlywedding (I’m redoubling my focus on the arts, for one – I’ve got a lot of learning to do), or even mourning Neon…
For example, Stannum went to prom. I was so nervous at prom – I can’t help but envy that everyone else seemed to manage it much better. Is that my eternity, watching people be so much better with people than I am?
…Oh. The answer to that is “yes.”
Records from the time indicate that there was not a single girl at this prom. Not a one.
There was, however, Kris. And Kris saw in Stannum, if not in actuality than at least in potentiality, someone like himself: someone interested in anything with a pulse. And maybe some things, specifically ghosts and vampires, without. Or maybe he just liked Stannum, and I’m projecting. Dangers of delving in history, I suppose.
Stannum, for his part – freshly named prom king and proud of it, picking fights with other students – had never thought of himself that way, but Kris smiled and brought him punch, and Stannum shrugged and pulled him onto the floor for a dance. He could do worse for a first love.
That evening, though, Diane and I went out on the town. We’re both looking to meet more people, with… varying degrees of excitement at the prospect. But we don’t know a lot of people in town.
And though we’d been having a quiet day – there was no sign of it, the sudden shift in my life that lurked, not even as visible as an iceberg or a shark.
She hadn’t been sick or anything – there was just the news, like a bolt from the blue.
She was pregnant.
To say that the life of the third immortal was…different…from the start is no exaggeration; perhaps a reader should mark it as an omen. Of course, that’s not how I learned it. I learned like this, when I came back from introducing myself to someone:
”Hey, Ferr? I won’t ask you not to freak out, because some things are just impossible, but… Don’t freak out too much, OK? A minimum.
…I’m pregnant.”For a moment, there was nothing but that sentence, filling up the cosmos. My entire awareness, funneled into that statement: I was going to be a dad. I’d always planned it, on the edge of my awareness, but… That’s different.
And then, a splintering: Did we need more money? Babies cost money, right? We needed to child-proof the house; I know we have some uncovered electric sockets. He could stick his fingers in there. Or she. How am I supposed to be a good father when already I’m making assumptions like that? Would I love her less if she were a girl, is that what I’m saying? How do I know when I love a child enough? What if I don’t? How do I deal with a person who depends on me for love and wisdom and support – I’m barely good at dealing with new people depending on me for small talk about the weather!
”Ferr? How much freaking out are you doing?”“I’m trying not to,” I muttered.
”Look. You know who’s going to be a great dad? You are. You’re sweet and your sensitive and you’re patient. …And then I’ll have to teach her – or him, or whatever pronoun she eventually goes by, you know, whatever – how to fight for what she wants, and not panic, and not just accept blindly what the world tells her... And it’ll all be great. Deep breath. Iiiin. And Ooouuut. OK? We’re OK. She’ll have a hyphenated last name, and it will be fine.”“Is that last part really relevant?”
”Nah, just thought I’d mention it while you’re still reeling.”I laugh. “Yeah, OK. A little Alchimia-Dreamer.” I take the deep breaths she instructed. Initial panic, slowly being replaced by a mounting excitement. Good. Good. It was going to be fine. It was going to be just fine, terror being replaced with cautious optimism. Of course we had enough money. We could absolutely get the electrical outlets covered, geeze – you think Mom the super-alchemist couldn’t work out how to childproof some electrical devices (she might, however, not see the value. Still. One worry at a time)?
…And of course, whoever, whatever this child is, I’ll love them. All those nerves will attest to that.
We’re going to be parents.
“That’s amazing.”
”There you go. Now, we came here to dance, right? Let’s dance!”“Wait,” I say as she pulls me to the dance floor. “What about the baby? Your condition!”
”I just found out today – you don’t have to worry yet, alright? I’m not letting this slow me down!”Well, I can’t argue with that…
But I can assuage my fears by getting us both to read lots, and lots, and lots of pregnancy books when we get home.
A small update on the rest of the household: a small incident made the greenhouse watering system not work as well, so they switched to sprinklers.
This had the obvious results.
Also, look at all those gnomes. Aurum was taking notes on gnome behavior, making particular note of turning on devices and having large, cabal-like meetings. According to her, the appropriate collective noun for a group of gnomes is a “Garden,” if you are being fanciful, or a “Swarm,” if you are not.
I say that gnomes travel in a ‘creeps me the plumbob out,’ but this is why I don’t study gnomes amongst my talents and arts.
As we sat and watched the stars, thinking wistfully of things just yet to come, still looming on the horizon – the baby, what to name it (Mom insists on a name befitting her art, but I’d like one at least relevant to mine… I think I know a good compromise.), what we want out the near future… We look up, and we see…
Lights. There’s a unicorn, somewhere out on the house lot tonight – I wonder if it’s hanging around because it knows something that we don’t.
Perhaps we could call this visit Omen #2 – but then again, maybe not; it was certainly, though, an odd thing.