Chapter 19 - "The Truth Hurts"I woke up the next morning, really out of sorts. Sheesh, what is wrong with me.
Then it dawned on me....
I was really and truly pregnant. With this confirmed, I felt better and realized why I was in such a state this morning. Dylan had gotten Harley out of her crib and she playing so sweetly all by herself...
and Dylan was in back caring for the horses, when I decided to go over to that man's house and investigate. It was driving me crazy and I just had to find out who it was and then I would leave it alone. Dylan would be so upset if he knew I went alone, so I just snuck out and took off.
As I pulled up, the man was in the front yard and it WAS my dad. What in heaven's name was he doing here and why. And why was he living in this dump of a house and where was mom. I had too many unanswered questions that I had better get some answers for.
I ask him what he was up to and he couldn't even look at me. I knew something was wrong.
I told him about his granddaughter and another one on the way. He looked shocked and started talking.
He looked upset and explained...
"Ok, Tricia, you need to know the truth. You are adopted. There it is out in the open. Let me explain. Your mom and I couldn't have kids of our own, so we found this adoption agency and there you were. I knew I wanted you from the beginning, but things just didn't go as planned. Your mom was angry because I adopted you without her knowledge. She hated me for it and therefore, I grew to not like you very much. That is why we sent you to boarding school, we didn't want you in the house anymore. I know we made your life miserable and I can't say I am sorry enough." I just stood there, it felt like my world just crashed around me in just a few seconds. So my whole life had been a lie and I was never wanted. My dad continued, "oh, another thing. Your mom is here, with me. We lost everything we had and divorced. She couldn't afford a place of her own, so she moved here and started staying in the basement. We really had planned on moving away and you would never have had to find out about this." Again, I was stunned. I ran in the house and down the stairs to give my so called mom what for and there she was, asleep, well, she is just going to have to wake up and feel the wrath.
She got up and gave me a hug. It didn't even feel right anymore and I felt so betrayed.
I let her have it and told her I knew the truth.
I told her I was glad that they would not be my babies grandparents because they mean people. She stopped and ask, "you have a little one and your pregnant again?" Let me feel your tummy.
I told her she had no rights to these babies and to leave me alone.
She begged me for another chance. I told her, nope, wasn't happening. Suddenly, I felt a pain in my stomach and something was not right.
My mom or whoever this person was, just stood there. I really needed Dylan and knew I had to make it home.
When I pulled up, Dylan knew something was wrong. He said, "Baby, you look upset. What happened?"
I told him, "it is over with my parents, actually, they are not my parents. Everything was a lie." I proceeded to tell him the whole story and he looked so upset and angry. I also told him I didn't feel good and wanted to lie down. He told me everything was going to be alright and he was there for me forever and always.
I knew all I needed was some rest and to put this behind me and concentrate on my family, my real family.
I layed down on the couch and could tell that Dylan was watching me, he was so concerned.
So now the real question. Who is my real mom? Where is she? Why did she give me up? I knew this wasn't over and I had to find out what the truth really was.......