Aubry So, you finally get to meet Aubry. In the moment I feel like I'm slipping into oblivion. No one takes notice of me anymore. With five sisters I see it being hard having to take care of all of us, and to connect with us. But all my siblings seem just fine, Mom spends an hour with them, she lets them help cook dinner, so on. They don't ask me to help, though. I guess they don't think I want to, but I would do anything to spend time with my parents like I used to. When I was a kid, my mom would take me to the park, I would fish and point out different things and she would pretend to be interested, we would catch butterflies, and eat a picnic lunch. Then she would take me to the dinner.. i wish we could do that again. It was a fun and special time. Where my mom's attention was mine and mine only. It feels as though no one notices anything about me anymore. I let my hair down, and got a hair cut, no one noticed. I traded in my contacts for glasses so I could see if someone noticed. No one did. I changed my outfits, no comments or anything. No praise, nothing. Emma gets attention because my mom and dad adore taking pictures of her and Parker. Daisy gets her time in the spotlight because her chess tournaments. Jessi cooks dinner with mom and dad, with praise for knowing so much about it. Sadie paints beautiful paintings, that Mom hangs around the house. And Cleo get's attention from inventing and from just being Cleo. It's unfair, I fish, I garden, and I get no praise. It's not fair! One night, I just had it. I felt sick of the loneliness and from the abandonment. I had tried sleeping, I tried watching the history network, I tried counting Daisy's tournament trophies, I tried almost everything. I knew the only way to shake the feeling was to run. I slipped out of the bedroom, and walked silently in socked feet to the stairs. I tiptoed down and at the door slid on my sneakers and laced them up tight. I silently opened the door and slipped out into the cool night air. It whipped around my face, making my hair fly. i slid the door closed behind me. I looked up at the darken windows, all except for one, the room I shared with Jessi. The little night light we've had since we were toddlers, created a soft, comforting glow. I turned around and flew down the steps and out the gate. I took off running,
My feet slapped the pavement, the cool air whispered around me. Tears began to fall, they ran down my cheeks. They made it hard to see, but I kept running. When I ran, I forgot, and when I forgot, I felt okay. I ran harder and faster, my feet barely touching the pavement. I flew. Running faster and faster and faster. The air feeling like clouds around me, embracing me. I stopped when I reached the beach , I leaned over to catch my breath. When I looked up, I was smiled at from millions of little stars. They twinkled 'Hello' to me as i tried to count as
I tried many as i could. The stars reminded me of my sister. Daisy telling me all these facts I forgot, Emma's sparkling personality, Jessi's warm, caring eyes, Cleo telling me stars are actually radioactive meteors and Sadie saying that stars are the people we love who are no longer with us, smiling down at us and guarding us from harm. But then I heard a siren coming from behind me, it seemed to becoming closer and closer. I told myself it was probably for someone else, and it just so happened to be after curfew. But then the car pulled up behind me. " Miss," said a stern but nice voice, " Your out after curfew, I need to take you home." I turned around and sluggishly got in the car, I dragged my feet, anything to get in the car slower. But once i was in the police officer drove home too quickly for me to even digest that I was caught after curfew. " I'll be right back," the police officer said. They got out of the car and rang the door bell. The door opened and light spilled onto the porch. A few minutes later the officer came back and told me to get out, my dad was waiting for me. "Can't I just stay in the car?" I pleaded looking at the house, it seemed dark, looming up with no lights.
" I don't want to go back.." I mumbled. The officer looked down at me, " I've never had a teen who actually wanted to stay in the car." she said sorrily. " Your dad seems very angry. I wish I didn't have to tell him, but if someone found out, I would lose my job." I nodded so she thought I understood, but I didn't in side I was boiling with anger. I got out of the car and slammed the door behind me. The officer looked at me one more time before driving off. I dragged my feet to the gate. My dad stood just inside, his mouth a thin line. His eyes said it all.
" WHAT WERE YOU THINKING AUBRY?" He yelled, "YOU DON'T GO OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WITHOUT AN ADULT! YOU DIDN'T EVEN LEAVE A NOTE! WHAT IF YOU HAD GOTTEN HURT OR SOMEONE KIDNAPPED YOU? WE WOULDN'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START LOOKING FOR YOU!" he was angrier then I had ever seen him, but i just added to my anger. " I thought we raised you better then that Aubry." he shook his head and crossed his arms.
"I'M NOT ON OF YOUR INSTRUMENTS THAT YOU KEEP IN GLASS CAGES, THAT IF THEY ARE OFF OR BROKEN YOU CAN JUST STRING IT BACK UP! I'm a human! You can't treat me like that! You've always treated me differently!" i yelled, he stood back, looking at me in disbelief that quiet Aubry just yelled in his face.
"You always babied Jessi. You treated her like an angel! You gave her all your attention, you told her that you loved her with all your heart and more then you can show her. You told me you loved me, that's it! No 'I love you more then I can show you, my darling, little Jessi.' You read her to sleep every night. While I tried to listen to you, trying to pretend that the story was for me too, not just Jessi." Tears began spilling down my cheeks again. "Aubry, I thought you didn't want all that baby stuff, I thought you wanted the simple version. The not dragged on version." He said trying to make it up to me. " Yeah right!" I yelled. " You just didn't love me as much as you love er, and Emma and Daisy and Sadie and Cleo! You say you love us all equally! It's about as equal as a penny to a dollar. I hate you!" I screamed. I ran up the stairs to the house. " Your grounded, I'll decided later for how long.' he yelled as I went up the stairs. " Whatever!" I yelled as I slammed the door shut. ' Aubry.." Cleo asked coming down the stairs. I glared at her and pushed past her on the stairs. She scrambled down the stairs and gave me the sad puppy dog eye's look. I stomped up the stairs and threw open the door to my room. I slammed it shut behind me and threw myself on the bed. Then I began to sob, I cried harder then I did when I broke my wrist when I was eight, harder then when I thought my teddy bear had lost it's eye. Jessi came out of the bathroom " Aubry?' she asked quietly, " What's wrong?' " Everything" I cried between sobs. She sat down on the side of my bed. She looked down at me with her caring eyes. She didn't say everything was going to be okay, she didn't ask what I did wrong, she didn't ask why dad was so mad and upset. She just sat next to me, which was the best thing she could do. Then she helped me to the bus. She gave me her emergency granola bar, which I inhaled as i ran from the bus to my locker and sprinted to my first period. History, ugh. I feel asleep during class, I didn't sleep last night and this morning I didn't even nap. Plus, I was slow getting off the bus, so I lost the time I could have ran over to the dinner for coffee. During study hall, I should have slept, it's the one class you can sleep in. But i couldn't sleep, because now I don't know if there is enough time to make it up to dad.
. Hope you liked the update! Sorry that it is longer, just wanted to tell it fully.
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